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Wednesday, July 14, 2004


Okay, the funny thing is that I realized after I looked back at the previous posts that I'd forgotten to mention the whole forgetful thing. For the past two weeks, I've been unusually forgetful. It's really odd.

First, there was the first day that was so odd with forgetting my bag and glasses and all. Then the next day, I completely forgot a 9am meeting that I'd made at 4pm the day before. Then on Friday, I went to Friday Night Waltz, started to walk in, and realized I'd left my wallet in the car. Came back to the car and noticed I'd left my dance shoes too. Then I took money out of my wallet, grabbed my shoes, and headed upstairs. Upstairs I realized I'd managed to set my water bottle down in the car when I got the money out of my wallet, and forget that. So I went back downstairs and grabbed my water. Blarg. Anyway, so on the following Wednesday, I managed to forget another meeting entirely, and that was a standing meeting that we have every Wednesday at 10. This was when I thought maybe I was actually losing my marbles. Later that day, Harish mentioned a bulk load test meeting, and I panicked, thinking I'd forgotten something else. Turns out, I wasn't needed for that so hadn't been invited. Whew. Anyway, now I'm doubting myself, and seem to be having real trouble with object oriented memory. I've always been the kind of person to forget where I put my keys, but this is bigger.

So, I'm trying to scale back a bit. Potential culprits could be that my brain is busy thinking about shopping for a house. Word has it that's one of life's hugely stressful things. The other option is that I'm just not sleeping enough, but I feel alert most of the time and not overly exhausted, and certainly not more than normal. I'm going to work an hour earlier these days, but that one hour earlier five days a week shouldn't make that big a difference. I mean, I'm a night owl by nature, but I've worked early shifts before without feeling like I was going insane. Of course, it's been years, so maybe my brain just isn't aging well. I don't know. All I do know is that I'm spectacularly forgetful these days, so I'm going to have to be more vigilant about writing things down, completing one task before starting another, and generally slowing down a tad until it gets better or until I don't notice that I'm living at a slower pace anymore. It's spooky, and wholly disconcerting. I have always thought of myself as a sharp, on top of things kind of girl, and that just hasn't been working for the last two weeks. Here's hoping it gets better soon.


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