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Thursday, October 19, 2006

The Ammy Body

It happened again today. Someone that I've known in passing for years said, "I almost didn't recognize you. You've lost so much weight!" It wouldn't catch my attention so much if it weren't the third person to mention it this week.

I'll grant, I've lost a bit of weight, but I don't feel like I look any different. When I look in the mirror, I look just almost exactly the same to myself, just a smidgen narrower. I've got bulges in all the same spots - the belly jiggle, the under-arm wobblies, the booty-of-doom (tm). I'm a little smaller overall, but it's all the same proportions. I guess I was more fat than I perceived myself before. And by federal standards, I'm still overweight by 10-15 pounds.

So I guess I don't know how to feel about that. All I know is that my weight has stopped its unrestrained free-fall for the moment, probably due in large part to my consciously eating a bit more because I have to be able to wear at least my old Miss Emelia dress for Dickens this year. I absolutely cannot afford a new Dickens costume this year. But then, what happens when I start dancing 4-6 hours a day on the weekends at Dickens? Will I begin melting away some more? I don't know how to feel about that either. I really like being a curvy girl. And thank goodness for clothing swaps. I seriously can't afford to replace my clothes. I was talking about this the other day with Suzi, who has also spent the past year or so melting away (though through a much more concerted effort than mine), and she's the only one who gets it. She said "It's an awesome yet frustrating and expensive problem."

2 Comments:

  • To quote my buddy Sir Mix-a-Lot:

    "You can do side bends and sit-ups, but don't you lose that butt!"

    By Blogger Flonkbob, at 5:50 AM  

  • I hear you about replacing clothes. I was happy to find some at the swap, but I have to do a goodwill run to get some more 'cause my jeans & slacks just don't fit anymore. Which is nice, in some ways, and highly frustrating in others. And I too cannot afford to replace my wardrobe

    By Blogger Zhaneel, at 12:46 PM  

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